Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
... I cried today - heaps and heaps and heaps!
Turn of events over the past few days havent been great!
1. Study stress - studying medicine overseas is harder than I thought. I study sleep eat watch TV in the same small square room. At times it drives me nuts!
2. Food - I crave for a decent meal! Hostel food is just so terrible and it doesnt help especially when one is preparing for exams. Its absolutely unflattering, a complete turn off and so disheartening. Atleast after a good meal back home, I felt so chirpy and pepped up to study! I still remember the times when my mum made special food for me during my board exams.. Sigh! those were the days - care and comfort - in abundance!
3. Staying in hall - It sometimes can get really tough to talk to the people +/- a few years from you! I think we all are under stress so nobody can really bounce it off from another one! It is accumulative and at times additive! I really havent been able to talk to anyone without offending them! And that is just so depressing. After making a "personal attack" as they put it, I feel so guiltly that I spend the next hour trying to make up! It is a rather draining process that I really hope to avoid! Sigh!
4. It is just so hard to communicate the stress level to my parents. Somehow I am not too good with Phone + Parents combination. I can tell them all the funny stories but I cant really tell them whats deep down inside my heart with them being miles away lest they get worried! I guess I havent mastered the judgement - drawing the fine line between reliance(opening up to them) & responsibilty(knowing when to keep things hush)
These are the times when I suddenly remember my strength, my crutches, the light at the end of the dark tunnel! - Our strength comes from God, the Almighty one.
Persevere, Pray and Peace - I hope I can get by....
let your heart out.
Exams - when the most firm determinations are challenged - fatigue sets in, I wonder what I am doing in medicine when I could have gone to UK and be having a time of my life!
How do I compare the two - they both are not level fields!
The scale measurement doesnt work - logic baffles me!
I keep telling myself perhaps its exams stress! I dont know! Perhaps I will never know - I guess that's where the beauty of making a decision lies. You trust yourself and your decicion regardless of what life might throw at you!
One more week - And the much look forward to break! Vacation - they say its the last of its kind but I dont want to believe that! I am sure there will be more to come, I just have to be an opportunist!
Well books beckon, to those reading with impending exams - all the best!
let your heart out.
Many times when in doubt I wonder what good will come out of it. Heaving a sigh I close my eyes and realise - it sets two people free to start afresh, it preseves the innocence and beauty of what was once something blooming and blossoming.. I dont quite know where the road leads to but I am sure something good will come out of this! Strength and perserverance are my bestest allies (I am hoping)!Que Sara Sara..
let your heart out.
After our stoopid bugging Anat spots KS, Aud, XQ, Ian and a new member whose identity must be kept in secret went to splurge over dessert at Big O
"1)ALF mudpie (i think it's ALF, can't be AFL.. ahh i dunno!)
2) the Dark Side mudpie.. which is dark choc on a brownie base!!!
3) banana caramel waffle with rum n raisin ice cream(hmm i think i like marche's better! haha maybe i'm just biased! =P )
4) some super chocolate-y cake with vanilla ice cream!! (this was the best!!!!) haha i forgot what it's called.. but it was soo nice! ha"
I surely felt happy after that!
Conclusion - My weakness - Chocolate! I think I have a mutant allele that never says enough to Chocolate until my becoming fat conscience tells me "Pooja think of the extra crunches u'd have to do"
let your heart out.
And with the entire gloominess of workload and pressure builiding up, I guess feeling homesick - I dont really know how this mechanism works but so far this is the explanation I have!
Lesson learnt - Start your year on the right note - I guess the melody will follow easily then!
Oh well on a more cheerful note, there are so many things I want to do once exams gets over! Perhaps I should get a to do list on my blog! Okie time to go haunt some IT pro to help me!
Enumerating a few before I completely forget - not that it'll be a disaster if I do!
1. Travel travel travel!
2. Shop shop shop
3. Practise more of piano
4. Squashy squash
5. Bake something - I really think its time I ought to get started in this new arena I have always feared to venture into!
6. Read Vatsala Aunties Rubies and Rickshaws and oh ya need to buy the hypocrytic oath as well
7. Be on permanent Snozz mode!
8. Splash and flash!
9. Get some colour onto my paint brush!
10. okie brain freez.. time to take a break!
Ill get on with this soon! Two more weeks! Fai di Fai di! (Thank you miss siewling and gabe for kindly introducing this to me)
let your heart out.
Like I said we just need excuses to go back and visit our old school! This time it was my entire class getting awards for doing fantastically well in their A-levels! The Shining Stars - Brandon, Sims, KS - need to treat us for receiving Prize in liquid cash! Haha!
Taking pictures with our Juniors, meeting April's mom (I admire the fact that she came down despite April not being around - that is really some support), catching up with teachers and looking all pretty and charming, the morning was a great kickstart to the rest of the day!
Ofcourse we had some "you know who" people mocking this tradition of calling back students and awarding them but I gues this is what makes my school special and different!
Happy Founder's Day to the ACS Family!
let your heart out.
Haunted house, Scone Cafe, Fondue, The reallly funkie rocket thingee made my science council are the some of the few things I remember!
Audrey Wee was as usual rather busy being Miss Busy but the two of us managed to get free bananas from our dear juniors and rather shameless dipped it in the chocolate fountain! Gosh how I love being a senior!
I finally bought a light blue shirt that I have been waiting to buy! I've had enough of the drama dark blues and the council whites! And some reds here and there! But I never really tried wearing the gold or blue colours of my school! Well this was the perfect opportunity to get it!
Oh did I mention the Dunking episode? See Mr Daniel Khor get dunked - The price we paid? S$700+++ And with all the fantastic basket ball players and air rifle captain we must have spent a truckload to keep trying to hit the handle with a ball!
Sun, wind and happiness! What a blissful day!
let your heart out.
S$$$ - Its not good to count
10 - Phonecalls
1 - duty exchange
6 - Punishing duties
20++ - beers bottles
Love - more the better!
A pinch of mischief - like looking at his phone when he's asleep to find out a few nos!
I aint a great baker but this was my secrete receipe to celebrating Yuehan's b'day in style! Nah I just mean - giving him a meaningful treat on his 20th b'day so that he can cherish that day, that moment for a long long time to come!
I figure I didnt really spend any of his bday with him and this time when he was making himself available on his bday, I thought the best b'day gift from me (others I dont wish to enumerate) will be calling his close friends to surprise him!
Got him this Jonny Brave cake that reallie deallie looks like him! Pat myself on the back for coming up with such a marvelous idea! I do intend to put pictures of it just that I havent got any yet!
Beer flowed among his friends that night! But it was so satisfying to see him happy and surprised and touched that all friends rose to the occasion.. not that he was going for some battle! Haha
Thank you Sims my agent, nah partner in crime for making this possible! U rock u Mr. Jock.. And to Darren, Biao, Shihao, Maryanne, Tims, Ying's (really really thank you), Keith, Mark, Shawn...He loves you all! *cheeky wink*
let your heart out.
Never thought, I'd be mugging day in day out to ensure that I get past my first year in medicine. Not that I dont like what I am studying! Its just not the most pleasant feeling when you have people who have the read the book cover to cover several times over and for you its just some exotic thing that you hope to visit before the dreaded exams!
Snell, Guyton are not my best friends! Cant imagine how they are some people holy gospel! Oh well, not to say that I am not motivated to study.. but oh well just.. I dont think the time is ripe yet for giving it all to this profession as some call it!
Okie I sound really low! Well the Punky Pooja as some claimed hasnt completely disappeared!
I still have time to squeeze in play, piano and pedicure! Pooja with her pukie p!
Thats all for now.. I have someone at the door - tsk tsk..
let your heart out.